Flag Counter
Now Playing Tracks

R.I.P Paul M.

2/23/1950 - 12/9/2013

Passed away at 10:22 am with his children and wife around him.

To me, you are not gone, you are free.

Free from the bondage of cancer, free from disheartening days, free from pain. 

You are free. 

And this is not ‘goodbye’,

but ‘see you again’.

(My father passed away this morning after a long battle with cancer. I am sad that he is gone, but glad he is not in anymore pain. I don’t know how long I will be inactive, but I will be silent for awhile. I will answer asks and messages. Thank you all for understanding and I will be back soon. Love you all.)

(Ps. Please go and hug your fathers for me, because you never know when they will depart from you.)


Hello lovely followers,

I would first like to apologize for my absence and lack of activity.

My father’s condition rapidly declined, almost to the point to being in a hospice.

Everyday has been a battle and hopes for a better tomorrow did not come to fruition.

(I don’t want to go into details.)

It left me drained in so many ways, leaving me to be inactive.

However, things are a bit more stable now, so I will post more artworks soon.

I need to finish requests on my other blog, so after or in between then, works will be placed here.

I would go more into detail, but I am too drained and raw to talk about it.

Thank you all for your patience and understanding.

Much Love, ShellDotE

shakeygal asked:

I hope you don't mind me messaging you. My father had colon cancer too. While Benedict wasn't around when he was ill, I had other things that got me through. It's nice to know that somebody else has basically experienced what I have gone through. You've basically summed up everything I went through and felt. Thank you.

I don’t you messaging me at all! Its a good thing to be able to relate to someone when you go through such a difficult ordeal. It makes you feel like you aren’t going through this alone. We always need to know that someone has felt the same heartbreak to ease our own.

I’m so glad you had something to help you through it. That’s why I love (not romantically) and cherish Benedict so much. He helps us so much and gives us such hope and inspiration to fight and survive. Whenever you find something or someone good and positive in dark times, you cling onto it and never let go. 

I’m happy to hear from another person like me who went through the same thing. Thank you for messaging me and I hope things are better for you and your father now.

Thank You All So Much and Hoping to Meet Benedict

I wanted to thank you all so much for showing so much love and support from my blog text “Why I am a Benedict Cumberbatch fan”.

To be honest, I didn’t expect to get any form of response. *Not that, by any means, was why I posted that.” But to receive so much love and support blew me away. I’m so happy that people are responding to my struggle and what I fight for everyday. My dad is grateful too.

From the bottom of my heart and soul, thank you all so much who responded to our message and showered us with compassion. Tumblr will now have a very special place in my heart.

Also, congratulations to those who met Benedict Cumberbatch at TIFF. I’m so happy you all got the chance to meet him. I was hoping to meet him there, but I am limited in my traveling abilities and expenses and could not go.

Even though I am a little heart broken that I could not go to meet him, I am hopeful that I will meet him someday. When I do, I will ask him to sign a picture of my dad and I will tell him to keep fighting for us who live and suffer from cancer and that his efforts will be forever cherished and recognized by cancer sufferers all around the globe. 

I hope I can accomplish this while my dad is still here with me.

So I’ll be on the lookout for his next appearances in the US or Canada. If you know when those appearances will be, feel free to send me the info through an ask.

Once again, thank you all who supported me and showed me love and sending your thoughts and prayers to my dad. 

Thank you all and have a great weekend!

Ps. Here is the text “Why I am a Benedict Cumberbatch Fan” if you have not read it. http://shelldote.tumblr.com/post/60283677274/why-i-am-a-benedict-cumberbatch-fan

Why I am a Benedict Cumberbatch Fan

My father has stage 4 colon cancer and peritoneal carcinoma. For a while, we were beginning to lose hope, I was losing hope that he would survive another year. People with colon cancer are expected to live between 6 months to a year, so the odds were against us. I was beginning to doubt the chemo, I was beginning to doubt my dreams of him being there. My hopes and dreams of my dad walking me down the isle and holding my first child were fading.

I thought I was going to lose the only man I would ever love the most.

One day, I researched my favorite actor, Benedict Cumberbatch, a bit and saw a 2010 clip of him speaking out and showing support for Maggie’s Cancer Caring Centres. At the time, when things were so hopeless and bleak, it was so coincidental to see that. To see that he took the time out of his busy hectic schedule to bring awareness towards cancer and the people who live with it brought me to tears. It was almost as if he were speaking directly to me saying, “I’m here to support you, it will be okay. Keep fighting Shelly, because I am fighting too”

A few months later, Benedict’s birthday rolls around the corner. I was in the middle of creating a collage of his works, when I stumble across a tumblr post linking to a charity cause. Benedict designated a charity for Myeloma, a rare form of cancer that affects the plasma in the bone marrow. Once again, I was awestruck. I went to the page and what happened next I did not expect.

His goal was met weeks before his birthday. More than 100% percent of his goal was met. The charity reached more than 10 million dollars. I can’t remember the exact number it met, all I remember was jumping out of my chair, cheering with tears rolling down my face, and then running to my dad telling him about this amazing cause.

Because of Benedict Cumberbatch, I continue to become energized and inspired to support and fight for my dad’s survival. Whether he knows it or not, Benedict’s cause touches lives and gives us hope that there will be a better and brighter future for people who don’t expect a future.

I didn’t mean for this to be a sob story, nor to bring attention to myself. I wanted to share with you all as to why Benedict Cumberbatch is my favorite actor and why I am a fan. Not just because of his acting talent, not because of his looks, but because of his work as a human being and the difference he has made.

Benedict Cumberbatch, thank you for opening the world’s eyes to cancer and the people who live with it. Thank you for making a bleak future a little bit brighter. Thank you for bringing life into our heavy eyes and tired bones and lifting up our heavy hearts. On behalf of people who suffer from cancer and the people who live with it, thank you.

Thank you.

One day, I hope to meet you and thank you in person, and have you sign a picture of my dad.

I would very much like to see Benedict Cumberbatch play the role of a serial killer.

I’m not saying that I want to see Benedict kill people, of course not, what I would like to see is Benedict use his limitless talent and imagination to explore the darker side of villainy. To me, Khan was not exactly a villian, so to see him portray a truly sadistic one would be a real treat.

His low purring voice would send chills up your spine, yet lure you into his trap. He would be a monster, yet intelligent, sophisticated, and would have to art form of mind trickery. At the same time, he would be charismatic and psychotic. However, having these traits, he would transform into a killer we have never seen or feared before. 

Knowing full well of Benedict’s art, the performance would most likely be so mesmerizing, that the horror movie itself wouldn’t be another slasher, but a deep and powerful thriller that would be recognized and loved for years to come. 

Like or Reblog if you would like to see him play such a role. ^^

“It got to a point, it was like a tipping point, where I was signing something and I heard Zachary say something very complementary about me…and…I, uh… started to cry. I was looking down and signing, and this fan said “Are you okay?” Yeah , yeah,  its really windy, my eyes are stinging.”

-Benedict Cumberbatch 

Sorry, I just had to draw this scenario out. Sorry for my sloppy hand writing too. ^^; 

To Tumblr, Love Pixel Union